My Walk

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My walk with Christ started with me kicking and screaming.

Christ invaded my work space. My boss’s wife wanted to host a bible study and I was forced to go because it was my boss’s wife... the Bible study was “Chase” by Jennie Allen.  It changed my life.

I realized I was tired.  So tired. I tried everything.  I couldn’t be everything. I couldn’t handle all the balls that I had in the air.  I couldn’t breathe...

One morning God said go to church.  Literally 3am God said GO TO CHURCH!  I heard it as clear as if He was standing next to me.  I felt like I was awakened by a loud whisper in my ear.  I laid in bed and tried to ignore the pit in my stomach. I tried to convince myself it was a dream.  I tried to ignore the need for something I could not explain. I got the girls dressed and went to the cowboy church because I was too late for the 9:30am Grace service and 11am would interrupt nap time. My husband thought I had lost my mind.. the last time I entered a church that he could recall was our wedding 8 yrs prior!  He just said “are you ok?!” I said with tears my eyes, “I don’t know, but I have to go to church.” He gave me a kiss goodbye with a bewildered look on his face and a lingering hug. I had tears in my eyes most of the service.
The next Sunday I came to Grace Community Church.  I was not sure about the church, but I came back a few times. One Sunday, Steve, the Pastor, said “if you’re coming to church for ME to speak to you then you are coming for the wrong reasons.” The bell went off... it’s not working because you are coming for the wrong reasons!


I was going to church so THEY could fix me.    

I started praying and listening.. I went to woman’s day event with my boss’s wife again. This time I was more excited but trying to hide it. The speakers there had stories like mine. Everything looked great on the outside but on the inside it’s a big ol mess!  They prayed. They believed. They gave it to God. He handled it.

Over the next few days I started to pray for God to lighten my load and carrier my burden.. HE DID!  I prayed for the Lord to take the chains that I was carrying off of me and HE DID! I prayed to be able to see the Lord work and I CAN!

I literally feel lighter.  I literally feel healthier.  I feel like I have a literal light and I’m going to let it shine!

I am still a mess.  I still forget stuff.  A lot of stuff! But I am happier.  I don’t know much scripture yet, but I know the Holy Spirit has washed over my life.  
Please give it God.  REALLY GIVE IT TO HIM!  His will is the most freeing way to live.

My walk has made me different, and for that I am eternally grateful to Jesus Christ for dying for me so I could live differently and be free!


Be Different Folks!

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